Saturday, November 27, 2021
Friday, November 5, 2021
There is never a perfect time for arrivals nor departures; we hold our breaths for as long as we can, knowing that it is inevitable
We lose track, lose touch, can't find our way back to one another, stumble towards purpose, meander for a meaning, hands growing numb
All at once, you mom and you Marmalade are everywhere
in the butterflies and dragonflies that passed through the garden this morning
happily whirled about by wind, the sun's dazzling confetti
After one too many seasons
of sweeping away the fallen hibiscus syriacus
I tired of death
For days, weeks, months, years,
My mind heart soul blood bone will forever be in that backyard searching
for my wild love
With distance comes a
mysterious hope; we are made of nothing
but hope, hope, hope
transcending
time, best interests, and reason
We gather at least seven times to pay our respects, say goodbye
For both the dead and the living, loss takes longer to sink in
Here is exhaustion: the ties that make it worth your while are the ties that bind
Protecting one's heart requires a daily letting go and letting in
If we make the right choice nine out of ten times,
hold us accountable for when we make the wrong choice
even one out of ten times
With repetition, we will lose our way, it is inevitable.
The closer you think you are to arriving
The clearer the distance in between
the language of time is mysterious
for one full minute, we can become riveted
by every bird twitch, a turning of the page
As long as we hold people who are not like us at bay, we will be less
Less storyful, less agile, less colorful, less human
Don't forget for a single minute that we are all linked
More often than not, just around the corner is something you want, but still out of reach; maybe play it safe, maybe take a risk
In the beginning, the middle, and the end,
We will bump into the contours of life
Be tempted to break free, tumble into light
in the end
we fall like dominoes
as a result of standing too close
across the distance of countless shores
feelings get clogged up
polluted by proximate priorities
we wait to be pulled closer
across the years
we will change the way we measure, keep, and lose
track of time
it's inevitable
a matter of right place
different time
we are in separate worlds,
looking down, looking
inwards, looking away,
always away,
for a reason to be
I can no longer recognize
my own reflection on the water, in the glass
night and day, it searches for the person I used to be
new friends come and go
but old friends come back
again and again
memories become overgrown
with and without intention
the greens become greener
weeds weedier
waiting to be tamed
sometimes you have to get comfortable
with getting stuck
in order to become unstuck.
it's a tried and true formula
letting go
there is a ripple in every memory
it reverberates out,
touches other memories,
sensing them to be lighthouses